Here, late in the night, I begin to grow philosophical.

I have been thinking alot about those ideas about how we all see things differently from each other. I remember that story of the man who woke from a dream of being a butterfly, and began to wonder if he was in fact a butterfly dreaming of being a man.

There are in fact, scientific reasons for seeing things differently. I know that a few of my relatives are red-green color blind (meaning they cannot distinguish between red and green).

This kind of thought made me start to think of how differently we all see things. I will look at red and see red, but is it the same red others would see? Suppose there is something about my vision that is "incorrect" compared to the majority of others, and makes me see colors differently. Me and another person would agree that if we were to look at a solid hue of "red", we would both agree it was "red" becuase when we grew up we were told that this hue is "red". But if we were to switch bodies, how differently would we see the "red"? Would it be like someone messed with the color settings on a TV, and everything suddenly seemed off a bit?

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We have quantified red, no, the whole of color to definite co-ordinates of whatever measure we use. And yet, I cannot help but wonder if that red I see is the same red you see.

You ever get the feeling the universe is trying to apologize to you?

It has been aggravating, and I have been in a bad mood. The school work has been a pressure upon me, and I lost the link cable for my iPod, among other things.

After finishing my classes and eating dinner, I returned to my dorm to continue the search for my iPod's link cable. While cleaning through the junk, I came upon an envelope that had been given to me a couple monthes back. It was a letter with some pictures, but the thing that surprised me the most was the $20 bill inside. I usually always shell out the cash from my letters, so seeing this surprised me. I addition, I got rather nice amount of cash from my mom as a Valentine's Day gift. I felt so happy I almost laughed aloud.

It felt, in a way, like the universe was apologizing to me for putting me through a rough patch. I may have these difficulties to work through, but now I can go out and buy something nice!

Well, the holiday break is over, which means getting ready to hit the books again.

While having to head back to my educational duties is somewhat of a downer, I have had plenty of experiences over break to feel fulfilled. I managed to do some art as gifts for firends and family, which were all recieved favorably. I also attended a LAN party, which while a bit of a chore to put together, is always fun to do. And of course, there was getting Christmas gifts.

Good luck to all of us in the New Year!

I just finished playing in a Magic the Gathering tournament. I lost two rounds, tied one, and won one. Even though I did not win a prize position, but I was happy becuase I had fun while I played.

It was a great feeling becuase a week ago, a problem in my family that I thought was long gone had appeared again. It ripped through some emotional wounds that I had long since healed, or I just plain ignored.

Today, I have started realizing something: Life will never stop giving bad moments, nor will it let you forget them. However, you have to take your victories and happy moments when you can. It is so easy to see everything as all wrong--but you have to remember that there is so much in this world that is good, just, and correct.

Don't let the bad times cripple you. Take all that anger, sadness, and betrayel... Take it all, and turn it into strength!

I have heard about how senses will trigger clear memories, and just reciently I experienced it. After sipping a cream soda, I was immediately brought back to this hobby store I used to frequent all the time. It made me think of all the times I would play card games, all the times I would flip through role-playing books that were beyond my purchasing power.

Unfortunately, that store closed a couple years ago and I have not been able to indulge in those hobbies as much as I would. It was such a nice place too.